Time: 11:11 make a wish!
Location: dorm
Music: Forever by Drake and lotsa peeps
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I so knew this abandonment was coming. Sorry paltry number of readers who actually cared. Here is a brief synopsis of what’s been going on in my life for the past six weeks or so:
Back when my parents were out of town visiting the sick gramps, Bronwyn decided to seal her death warrant and passport to Hell by throwing a party. And by party I mean full out kegger, the kind you only read about at frats. Three quarters of my high school was there, the majority of my graduated class showed up for a time (ew), and who the hell knows how many out of towners dropped by. I had made the mistake of going out to visit Alyssa that night, and since her parents are insane, the littles were invited as well. The twins had been invited to a sleepover, thank God. Somehow Ian neglected to care/call me, so I’m driving home and I can’t even get up my street, there are so many parked cars. (Illegally, of course) And I live in the middle of nowhere – for my town anyway. The true rural folks wouldn’t consider it as such, but I digress. Needless to say, the police hadn’t gotten there yet, but had I been any later…
Leaving the kids in the car- safest place- I pulled out the twins’ fake guns set- you know, for cowboys and Indians?- and killed the party. By the time Ian and I wrestled everyone out, Bronwyn was crying, and it was close to 4 a.m. And then I remembered the littles were in my car…
Anyway, the ‘rents were not pleased but couldn’t come home because gramps had declined further. He hasn’t passed on yet, but I don’t know how he’s hanging on, it must be so painful, pancreatic cancer. And it’s set into his lungs too.
I can’t remember much more from that week because I’m pretty sure the brats who decked me when I tossed their asses out gave me a mild concussion.
Anyways, to continue. We did make it to Scotland safely-we did manage to squeeze a short trip in-but Bronwyn had to stay inside the whole time because she was (and is) still being grounded. My parents didn’t dare leave her at home. The weather was nice, if rainy, and this time we got to explore the Orky islands. They’re very isolated but gorgeous! So much painting material…wish I was still there. Oh and on the last day, Padraig tried to eat a (live) sheep. Typical.
School has started by now, and I neglected to mention this, but I’m at a new school. As much as I liked Harvard, I really wanted to be out in the wilderness; I despise the city. Not to mention, I was still close enough to be tempted to go home way too often. I wanted a clean break and a smaller campus. I hate being nameless in a sea of bodies.
So I’m typing from way out west Massachusetts, at good old Amherst. Not UMASS; Amherst is a “mini Ivy.” I love being surrounded by clean air. Not to mention, I’m outside everyday DOING THINGS like biking or running. IN NATURE. Sorry for the caps, it’s still so novel and exciting. The drive home is a bitch though; I’m not looking forward to Thanksgiving break.
Oh. I forgot for a sec: the other reason I haven’t written was another family matter. Based on the (relative) anonymity of the internet, I figure it’s safe to type this out. I’m still flipping out really. Okay, here goes. Deep breaths.
So you know how large my family is. No, my mom’s not pregnant. BUT. It seems that Ian…is not quite…
He’s only my half brother.
If you’re saying HOLY SHIT, that’s how I feel. And I’ve known this since I went back to school. Major downer for the drive to school, let me tell you. So in some ways it’s not a HUGE surprise because Ian is blond like my mom, and my father’s a Native American. But I just figured, oh it’s probs because he’s got some white ancestors, recessive genes, etc. Plus, my parents are all over each other. It’s truly disgusting.
I found out because I was listening in on one of my parents’ phone convos with the Cali grand ‘rents, and the matter was, shall we, say, dropped. I was like, wtf?
Apparently, my mom didn’t have an affair or anything, as I initially suspected. But after she had me, she had some issues, and the doctors told her she couldn’t have any more kids. So my parents were like, what about in vitro? So they tried that. Only here’s the kicker: some doctor effed up and essentially, gave Ian the wrong dad. I mean, epic fail or what here? On the other hand, the doctors were wrong about her not being able to have any more kids, and after Ian, they had the rest the natural way. But still. I want to BE a doctor. That kind of grave error really freaks me out. Especially cuz, this is Boston, you know? This is kind of a big deal area for the medical industry. But Ian said he didn’t care because he’s still our family, full-blooded or not. Aw, such a good kid, even if he did help my sister host a kegger.
So that’s another reason I’m glad to be out in the country: I mean I understand why they didn’t say anything, but I need a little time away from the fam.
OH! There is one more teensy tiny thing I have to tell you guys: so Alyssa found out that I’ve been using her blog. This was like a month ago. It was right after I’d had dinner at her house.
But she was cool, all “well at least someone’s using it.” I guess she’ll start a new one? Maybe? But I’m still here, to help distract you from your rudimentary lives…
Maybe I’ll post soon. But don’t count on it; I have a life, you know?
-M
I might start signing “corn” just for kicks